November 6, 2009

Life without speaking...

As some of you may already know I need to go in for surgery soon. And the recovery time will be a couple of months. At first I was really bummed out to have to do this, but I've decided to look at things from a different and hopefully more positive perspective. Like most women and mom's, I have always tended towards putting myself last on the priority list. I've neglected my own needs and my health for a while now. So this will actually be a good thing. A chance to focus on my life, my health, my art, my goals, etc. And this surgery will clear up some health issues, and pain that I've been dealing with for quite some time. So instead of being bummed out, or even freaked out. I am going to use this time to heal, recover, and nurture myself. I will spend my winter snuggling in and relaxing, recovering, re-evaluating my life, and also focusing more on my art. So that when spring arrives I will be healthier, stronger, more focused and energetic. Kind of like a butterfly..I will nestle into my little cocoon, do the work I need too, and emerge with new wings and brighter color, ready to fly. I have sooo many ideas and art projects inside my head just waiting for a chance to be born, and this will be the perfect time to really focus on making them a reality. I also plan on spending my healing winter days learning to knit, take and edit video, learning to use my new sewing machine, and hopefully make some cool things..I also plan to blog a lot more, seeing as part of the recovery process restricts me from speaking at all at first and then only on a limited basis until I have healed more..which should be interesting to say the least..but again instead of freaking out about it, I've decided to use it as a means to express myself in other non-verbal ways, such as art and writing..so stay tuned for future updates on my surgery and recovery adventure and life without speaking...